My plight to find love again is beginning through appreciation
of character qualities, which seems like it should be an obvious choice for us as we interact with those we love. After all, whether we realize it or not, WE MAKE A CHOICE EVERYDAY to have them in our life. Focusing on a specific character quality rather than "Hey thanks for picking up the groceries" removes the ego mantra that says, "I only love you when you do something for me." It's appreciation for who they are rather than what they can do for you. And quite frankly there are many days it is a pure struggle to stay in the game of family, of love, and in running a good race. So in an attempt to find the good, in those I love - my plight is appreciation. I'm sharing in hopes that it may inspire you to consider these qualities that exist in abundance in those around you. You've just got to look for it. And so begins my 100 Days of Gratitude.
Day 4: I'm grateful for Answered Calls
I share how grateful I am that my significant other answered all of my calls yesterday. It was literally a day filled with one frustration followed by another. At 12:00 AM this morning, I was still meditating and breathing out the overwhelment of the day. One of my goals is to grasp, embrace, and live up to all that God has made me to be. My prayers and meditations have transfused into one consciousness where I focus on being filled with more patience, more love, and more compassion. I want to learn to embrace and glide through life’s little challenges so that as we arrive to the big ones, I’ll be fully capable of dancing through them.
While my growth may not seem noticeable to the average eye, I've noticed surmountable shifts within my spirit. I heard somewhere that when distressing, the accumulated stress has the same affect going out as it did on its way in. So as you commit to building a more peaceful flow-state in your life, it's important to understand that stressful situation may continue to incite a response that could even be more heightened than before. Proof that the enemy of our spirit does not wish to flee easily. I will not be discouraged because I don’t respond perfectly every time. Rather, I choose to celebrate the shifts within my spirit and temperament, the lowering of my body temperature, and the attention to mindfulness I am able to achieve in spite of a stimulus or stress. I choose everyday to celebrate the steps I make towards a healthier lifeflow, and I know made some major gains.
Yesterday was a huge win for me. There were two specific times where I thought I might lose my mindfulness, but both times were brief and subdued. I was able to take a walk the first time, and the second time the moment dissipated as quickly as it arrived. I was up at 6:00 AM to get groceries before the girls woke up. I arrived home around 7:30 AM and made my coffee. I intended to have breakfast at some point that morning. However, from the second Joce came down the stairs, it was obvious I may as well not dream such big dreams. My caffeine cure remained hot on the counter as the day spiraled into matters that demanded attention.
Breakfast FIRST. I always enjoy feeding the girls a big breakfast, it’s something they really enjoy and it makes me happy to see them happy. Next was an internet crisis, followed by desperate hotspot trouble shooting (PLEASE DON’T MOVE MY PHONE A MILIMETER!) juxtapositioned with several failed printing attempts. And then the guy wanted to know if I wanted to upgrade. Then it was time for lunch. No mayo and Meeah’s inquisitively specific eyes were watching like a hawk every move as I made with her sandwich. I wanted to stay true to my goal of feeding them healthy full meals which means feeding them things that they like so they'll actually eat it. Off to Walgreens for Mayo. It's now 2 PM and we're just beginning to get to our homework.
I spent one hundred percent of the day serving the girls, and finally at 11:00 PM we got Meeah’s homework done and her into bed. It was a whirlwind to say the least. But every time I encountered something I was unclear on, I was able to call my significant other and feel more confident about what to do next. He answered every time and every call helped me find the solution for what to do next. They were just short calls with limited details, but the difference it made in my choices was substantial and helpful. I didn’t feel so alone in all that I was doing. Many people attempted to call loved ones today and they didn't get an answer. It is a gift to have an answered call and today I am so grateful for that.
Day 4: I'm grateful for Answered Calls
I share how grateful I am that my significant other answered all of my calls yesterday. It was literally a day filled with one frustration followed by another. At 12:00 AM this morning, I was still meditating and breathing out the overwhelment of the day. One of my goals is to grasp, embrace, and live up to all that God has made me to be. My prayers and meditations have transfused into one consciousness where I focus on being filled with more patience, more love, and more compassion. I want to learn to embrace and glide through life’s little challenges so that as we arrive to the big ones, I’ll be fully capable of dancing through them.
While my growth may not seem noticeable to the average eye, I've noticed surmountable shifts within my spirit. I heard somewhere that when distressing, the accumulated stress has the same affect going out as it did on its way in. So as you commit to building a more peaceful flow-state in your life, it's important to understand that stressful situation may continue to incite a response that could even be more heightened than before. Proof that the enemy of our spirit does not wish to flee easily. I will not be discouraged because I don’t respond perfectly every time. Rather, I choose to celebrate the shifts within my spirit and temperament, the lowering of my body temperature, and the attention to mindfulness I am able to achieve in spite of a stimulus or stress. I choose everyday to celebrate the steps I make towards a healthier lifeflow, and I know made some major gains.
Yesterday was a huge win for me. There were two specific times where I thought I might lose my mindfulness, but both times were brief and subdued. I was able to take a walk the first time, and the second time the moment dissipated as quickly as it arrived. I was up at 6:00 AM to get groceries before the girls woke up. I arrived home around 7:30 AM and made my coffee. I intended to have breakfast at some point that morning. However, from the second Joce came down the stairs, it was obvious I may as well not dream such big dreams. My caffeine cure remained hot on the counter as the day spiraled into matters that demanded attention.
Breakfast FIRST. I always enjoy feeding the girls a big breakfast, it’s something they really enjoy and it makes me happy to see them happy. Next was an internet crisis, followed by desperate hotspot trouble shooting (PLEASE DON’T MOVE MY PHONE A MILIMETER!) juxtapositioned with several failed printing attempts. And then the guy wanted to know if I wanted to upgrade. Then it was time for lunch. No mayo and Meeah’s inquisitively specific eyes were watching like a hawk every move as I made with her sandwich. I wanted to stay true to my goal of feeding them healthy full meals which means feeding them things that they like so they'll actually eat it. Off to Walgreens for Mayo. It's now 2 PM and we're just beginning to get to our homework.
I spent one hundred percent of the day serving the girls, and finally at 11:00 PM we got Meeah’s homework done and her into bed. It was a whirlwind to say the least. But every time I encountered something I was unclear on, I was able to call my significant other and feel more confident about what to do next. He answered every time and every call helped me find the solution for what to do next. They were just short calls with limited details, but the difference it made in my choices was substantial and helpful. I didn’t feel so alone in all that I was doing. Many people attempted to call loved ones today and they didn't get an answer. It is a gift to have an answered call and today I am so grateful for that.
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